4 Generations – Water Buffalo – China:

Blogger One (in the US) teams up with Blogger Two (in China) to give one poor family a Water Buffalo.

Click on the link for the video about the Water Buffalo saga.

In a few hours I will be off receiving a facial and probably spending a ridiculous amount of money on skin care products.

Wheee!

How Will You Go?

A moment,
A man, sitting Indian-style
Hat out for change.
Pavement below,
Pavement behind.

Did recognition
alight in your eyes?
You feigned it well
Much like your life.

There is no worship
to be found. I’ve searched.
No childish memories
That remain untainted
Like the burnt edges
Of a childhood photo
Long lost to the ages.

I have naught from you
But a name
And a history you never
Taught me.
Not a solitary image.

Do you carry one of me
In your empty wallet?

In the end you were
a bow and arrow,
a tomahawk.

A deserter manitou.

I find myself drifting a little too close to a hole that looks a little too familiar.

It’s been almost 2 years since Mel and I broke up (oh my god, where the hell does the time go?) and it’s only now that I’m truly starting to feel lonely, or worse yet, alone.

It’s not that I’m missing that particular relationship, or that particular girl, but I’m missing something. I don’t know if it’s friends or the past in general, fun, connection, or what. But tonight, for whatever reason I’m really rather sad, in a way that I haven’t felt for a very long time.

I’m not sure what I can do about it, really. I mean, I’ve put profiles on dating sites, tried to keep an open mind about who I want to date — but really does my open mind matter if no one wants to date me?

And really it’s not just about dating, if I’m going to be honest. I feel like my friendships are weakening. Not for any reason beyond the fact that I have nothing good to share with people (Went to training today. Spoke french. Came home. Ate. Slept. Lather, rinse, repeat.) and I just don’t see most of my friends that often.

Which leaves me alone, which is fine 90% of the time, but it also sends me spiraling into anti-social patterns and behaviours, which leaves me alone more, and it’s really a chicken and egg kind of phenomenon.

I look online every day at ottawaevents.org to check for things that I can do alone that may also introduce me to new people, but it’s slim pickings.

Blah. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be past this.

Battlestar Gallactica Season 3 gag reel. Way too great. Obviously the editors had fun with this one.