I am a rather shy person. New social situations, particularly when I don’t know a lot of people at the place in question, freak me the fuck out. I tend to avoid these things. So when I got an off hand invite to an overnight party at a friend of a friend’s I accepted, figuring that it wouldn’t come up again. To my shock my friend followed through, telling me the wheres and whens and even giving me a lift to and from the place in question.

So I got to the party. And as usual I was shy and freaked out. There were about 22 other women there – all lesbians as far as I know. I won’t go into the details of every hour &^ every minute, but let me say that hanging out with these women managed to teach me something. Sure I was wasted, they were wasted, but I still learned something. And in all the joking and goofing around, what I learned was about sex, or sexuality, to be more precise.

I’ve always been a bit prudish. Never been one to talk to my friends about my girlfriend’s great ass (and it is great, let me tell you), or joking get flirty or touchy with them. I’ve just never been one to be overly open or gratuitous about the subject of sex. I mean, I’ll talk about it with friends, discuss “techniques” that worked well for me, and speak in delicious tones about the fabulous sex I had last night, but to close friends, when I felt there was something to say.

The women at this party were so comfortable with themselves, with their desires, with talking and joking and making sex something fun. I’ve always found sex enjoyable, and a good thing, but I’ve never thought of it as fun. Maybe now I can. Maybe now I won’t take everything so seriously.

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