It’s been hard to feel motivated these days. The world is moving around me and I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep, hoping that when I wake up all my responsibilities will be taken care of, and any uncertainties about the future will have resolved themselves.
Maybe it’s just that it’s Monday. It’s hard to feel excited about a Monday. Monday is the day when the whole cycle begins again. Back to the jobs, back to the classes – 5 whole days until the weekend; will I make it until then? Strangely enough, I feel pumped this morning. I’ve managed to get some organizational issues out of the way rather quickly, and things at work seem to be moving forward. I’m this strange mix of apprehension and enthusiasm. Kind of like my brain is saying “It’s going to be a long week, and I don’t want to be here, but since I am, I’m ready to accomplish everything!“.
My mood has a split personality this morning. While there’s a lot to be done, and it’s intimidating, it’s nice to actually have something to do. I feel I have some small purpose in my existence today. So I’, going to try and hold on to this mood. It doesn’t happen for me very often. If everyday was like this – well it would be mind blowing.